Wednesday, May 14

Haiku 11 +

You expanded my 
Heart but then could not think of
How to fill the space

It hit me yesterday that I have to forgive her. For not knowing how to face her shadows, for hunkering down for safety, for taking a sledgehammer to our lives when all else failed. 

I have to forgive myself, for being too confrontation-adverse. I don't know what else I could have done. 

I'm scared of what's coming. I don't want to move and I don't want it because, on top of moving fucking sucking, everything else is shifting and the one constant I have is knowledge of where my head will rest.
I don't know what else I have to do. I do know I have to forgive her, so that I can forgive myself. 

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