It is a lame feeling, to look for work and feel as though you would not be considered for anything. This is not unlike when I was a teenager, and every woman I looked at was sure to have nothing to do with me. I dunno why that viewpoint changed but the one about work does not.
I recently said to someone 'When people do something awesome, I want to give them money. Oh, dear. Nobody wants to give me money.'
And it's a nice joke but the truth is that the world only cares about what it can get from you/what you can do and....I'm not sure that I can do much that is useful. It isn't too late to learn something useful but what to learn? I don't really want to do it by myself. I like taking on things with people.
Which is weird. But there it is.