It's been a couple years and I do miss you and the energy you brought to my life. I miss my friend. I wish things were different and I certainly feel sometimes like I was used; the beacon that showed what was not quite right in your life, cast aside once you were done.
I also know you just disappeared one day and that stings too. Even now, even after everyone is bored of that story and this hurt, even me.
But you know what? Part of the reason I have the life I have now is because of you. It's a good life. I miss you and I hope that someday we can be friends but even if not: I hope you have a Happy Birthday, because I love you and that's how I want to be towards the people I care about.